You entered
From nowhere
Was it through
The welcoming front
Or just peeping in
Through the back door?

I did realize
You got in to me
Not waiting for anyone
To escort you
For your worthiness or
To recognize
Something else
That to your merit
You are now
Within me…

I feel you
Right beneath my nails
Deep inside my skin
Sometimes in itching tints
Often like a pricking needle
As if it’s your envy
That fights my soberness…

Now I face you in anger
What treacherous troubles
You start up
Administering inside out on me
Crawling like a stingy insect
Into all my systems
My tummy
My bellows
My turbulent brains
My worthy joints
And into my very existent

I do try
Retreating you
Chasing you
Attacking you with
Anti bodies and medications
Inject in you the fear of
Dissecting you
Threatening to kill you.

Yet you hesitate
To leave the comfort of
My body and soul
Growing into an
Ever fearless dragon
Gnawing and growling
Wrestling with vigor
Inside me.

Don’t you realize?
I get accustomed to treat you
As an usual
An unwarranted foe
Though unwanted,
I keep you beside me
‘Cause what you instill in me
Is an unusual desire
To survive the tragic ends
That I’d love, will be loved
For I live exactly
Like a human.

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Born on first Nov 1959 in Mumbai, INDIA. Had the schooling at Mumbai & graduated in Physics from Calicut University in Kerala. Married to M Ravindran. We have 2 boys , the elder is Lt. Commdr in Indian Navy & the younger boy is doing his MS ( Aero space) at IIT Chennai,India. I am working as a MATH Teacher at Kendriya Vidyalaya since 1980. I write poems in Malayalam, English & Hindi. Published 5 malayalam Poem collections and one in English. Many of my poems have been published in journals.

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