I so often lie to myself

I so often lie to myself,

I dream of you every waking moment and I talk to you.

Sometimes I realize that it is just an apparition and you are not there with me.

But my heart holds my senses back and convinces me,that you are indeed with me there.

With countless nights and days away from you ,to hold back my sanity.

I imagine you all around ,

Gazing at me caressing me with your eyes.

You don’t touch me but I can feel

I can feel that shivering sensation of being looked at with admiration.

I feel rejuvenated

And so on it goes…

And so often I just lie to myself.

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About Nalini Srivastava

I am an Indian.I write to let go of myself.It is my catharsis.My biggest inspiration is my son and every passing moment of life.I am a teacher by profession and the way I love to write ,I love to teach.With my one solo poetry book already published "Feminine Musings" hope many more will see the light.

3 thoughts on “I so often lie to myself

  1. amitapaul

    It’s a bit disconcerting to come across a poem all in block capitals especially when it purports to deal with a delicate , nuanced subject . The heart that holds the senses back presumably convinces the narrator of the poem that the lover is present even when he is not. The self contradictory nature of emotion is well delineated, though .


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