I feel guilty


I feel guilty when i do not listen to conscience
and act as per whims
i feel guilty when something wrong happens
for which the reason is me

I feel guilty when
i avoid duty deliberately
and remain engrossed in my life and its beauty
i feel guilty when i lavishly spend
while my immediate neighbour
is in dire need of it

I feel guilty when i put a mask
make thousands of compromises
die and reincarnate time and again
to live life the most ignoble way

I feel guilty when i am not true to myself
see and tolerate injustice
keep mum and enjoy
the comforts of life as i wish

I see
innocence suffers
justice denied
i feel guilty when i behave as if
i know anything
and find excuses for
my dignified silence

Sunsets and shines
life goes on
but i carry the burden of guilt
all along
being too sober and gentle
i expect others to raise their voice
and bring that better tomorrow
which is none of my concern

Copyright@Smruti Ranjan Mohanty

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About Smruti

Smruti Ranjan Mohanty, O.F.S, son of Raj Kishore and Shantilata Mohanty, born at Padmapur, Jagatsinghpur, Odisha on 1.1.1963 is a multilingual poet, essayist and writer. He is a published poet and writer and a featured poet of PENTASI B World Friendship Poetry. His writings include essays, short stories, poems and novels which are published in newspapers and in various national and international magazines, journals and anthologies. Working as Finance Officer in Govt of Odisha, he writes extensively on life, its beauty and intricacies which are widely acclaimed. Poems are published in Mother Anthology by Hall of Poets, Voices of Aspirants by Poetry Planet, Mother by Poetry for Peace, Let the men speak for peace, Aroma of wilting petals, Anupam Bharat, Sourav, The Rock Pebbles, Symphony of Souls, Serious &Hilarious, Heartistry, World poetry on let there be peace, Complexion based discrimination global insight, Thought and Nature Anthology, New Creative Anteriority, Spring Window to peace, Indo African Anthology, Love at first sight, Spilling Essences, You and Me, A new beginning, Heart to Heart, Only you, My Valentine, Whispering Hearts, Poetic Rainbow, Fragrance of Asia, The Harmony, Sahitya Anand, East meets the West, Symphony of Peace, Pearls of Poesy, Ambrosia, International Anthology on Autism, Stars, Sky and Poiesis, Rain Drops of Love, Smrutire Parijat, Peace Lover, GloMag, Feb 2019, Tranquil Muse, Medley of Melodies, Nostalgia, Rise to Higher Essence, Cherry Toppings, Inked Thoughts, Whispering Poiesis, Rippling of Peace, Creative Anteriority, World for Piece, Traumas on Widows, Holistic Healing of Widow, The Global Literati Insights Research Journal, 1st issue 2018 etc. Poems are also featured in online magazines like atunispoetry.com, our poetry archive, GloMag etc., Poem hunter.com, Destiny poets, Different truths, YouTube.com.etc Website-smrutiweb.wordpress.com

2 thoughts on “I feel guilty

  1. amitapaul

    Guilt is a perfect alibi for inaction , gentleness for pusillanimity and sobriety for indolence . Tomorrow is everybody’s concern . If this is not tongue in cheek satire , it should be .


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