Why?

i live and exist
a life to persist
i am on my own
learn to live alone
nomad without a home
on a pathway of a dome
with all twist and turn
i stand still and stern why?
I learn to ask
as my day ends at dusk
I live frail and faint
i’m no sinner nor saint
but i deserve to be me
so to keep the love for thee
its a life you gave
so i stand and be brave
with all the love i crave
a grasp in arms to save why?
i learn to ask
as my day ends at dusk
but in my every thought
it’s for wisdom that’s sought
even with a heart of sorrows
set me free to spare tomorrows
though the heart is in despair
knowing life was never fair
i keep my heart in tears
strive to walk without fears why?
I learn to ask
as my day ends at dusk
being alone can be forever
live or die, will anyone care
with eyes upon heaven, i stare
beg for thee, a life to dare
I live bare and empty
lost my own identity
should everything be lost
i’d vanish away like a ghost why?
I learn to ask
as my day ends at dusk
into the depth of dawn
unto the twilight enthrone
poems and songs no longer rhyme
dreams and hopes never sublime
a way along on this foggy dark
alluded in death from angels hark
i will leave the living behind
walk away, with eyes that go on blind
No automatic alt text available.in acrylic painting by suzette portes san jose
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About suzette portes san jose

ABOUT THE AUTHOR SUZETTE PORTES SAN JOSE She was born and raised in Cebu City, spent her elementary years at Stella Maris School, Franciscan Missionary Sisters at Mabolo, Banilad, Cebu City and her high school years at the University of San Carlos Girls High School, Holy Spirit Sisters. She went to college at the University of San Carlos, SVD Priest in Cebu City, Philippines. She is a University half scholar from high school to college. She was born with a passion for writing and living in her art forms. She started writing online in 2013. She now has joined 18 book anthologies from 2015 to 2019. Each of her poems is written with her painting as visuals and is now appearing internationally, namely in the United States, Canada, United Kingdom, India, and the Philippines. She is also a recipient of multiple awards for her ARTworks and Literary works. She was awarded Poet of the Year in 2017 by one of the prestigious poetry site Destiny Poets International Community of Poets UK. Also, a regular contributor to GloMag a monthly issued magazine in India. She has also published her 2 narrative poem Chapbook book "As The Wind Blows" and "Whispering Silence" in the 10 part series. She has also done her first-authored book "The Dawning" along with other books Isle of Words and Colors Vol 1 "Footprints from Every Waks of Life", Isles of Words and Colors Vol. 2 "Journey to the New Horizon" and Kirky’s Adventure Vol.1. Now coming up with Isle of Words and Colors Vol. 3 "At The Rainbows End" and her 2nd book "Whisperings". It has always been her dream to leave her legacy as a fulfilled artist and for her next generation to follow her footsteps. A dream comes true. Thank you, Kirk Dominic (granddaughter) Wilyam Gabriel SJ Reyes (grandson) and Angelito Portes San Jose (only son) for dreams that came to reality.

6 thoughts on “Why?

    1. suzette portes san jose Post author

      words from the heart be heard and understood by one heart to another heart… thank you for giving words the chance to convey the sense of sensitivity… (Y)

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  1. Louis Kasatkin

    An engaging work , it’s intended impact rendered somewhat inert for the reader by the poem’s overall length. Clearly the piece would have benefitted from some cursory re-examination.

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    1. suzette portes san jose Post author

      just the overflowing feeling from within…relaying the emotion though motionless the pain is held like a thorn piercing into the heart that keeps me bleeding within… thank you Sir Louise for the patience and thorough examination of the poem… 🙂

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  2. Monika Ajay Kaul

    Plethora of ‘Why’s’..!!
    Undying , never-ending questions to be answered by unpredictable life.

    A fervent rendition.

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    1. suzette portes san jose Post author

      LIFE IS CEASELESSLY UNPREDICTABLE AND SO IS EVERYTHING INVOLVED IN IT…AS IT KEEPS ON ROUND AND ROUND IN CIRCLE WITH EVERY Phase OF TIME NO BEGINNING AND NO END…THANK YOU DEAR MONIKA AJAY KAUL… 🙂

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