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Denial

Nothing –
Nothing happened
When my bare feet
Slipped over the pebbles,
Eroded smooth
By unyielding currents.

There was no spark
Of recognition,
No remembrance,
No sense of loss,
No desire, no pain.

Only the remnants
Of a palpable numbness
That I would attribute
To no one,
Because, nothing –
Nothing at all happened…

– August 13th, 2015
© Sana Rose 2015

Footnote:
Denial is a deep psychological aspect. A defensive mechanism, a way of survival and the path to loss of identity. I didn’t realize the inspiration behind this small poem until after I published it on my fb page.
The credit goes to a novel that portrays the victim of physical domestic abuse at the hands of her husband. And ‘denial’ is her tool of survival. Every moment of being hurt is imagined to be not happening as it happens.

Irony

Thoughts intricate
as simple doodles
on unwanted pages.

Sleepy-eyed,
I admire the curves
that keep swirling.

This is insanity
but it could’ve been
an escape.

This is pretension
but the synonym
is survival.

And this is sanity,
not the usual,
but an abnormal one.

The irony is that
existence exists
even in non-existence.

– Sana Rose
June 2012