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Scattered Thoughts

Am I still here?
Not my body, but my whole self
I feel like an empty soul with a body and a beating heart
What’s life without purpose?
Its like a feather on the blue sea
Afloat but lost…
What is breath with nothing to live for?
Empty life, I say
Lost for all time.

I walk miles in my head.
Searching for a place of quiet and rest
For peace in the deep of my breast
Somewhere to lie and just reminisce
And reflect on my past days
Where am I now?

The Silence

The silence is
Malignantly comfortable,
As each sand grain
Takes its place
As the wind whips
Against my face
And makes my heart
Take a somersault…

Simple acceptance
Has its own way
Of hurting the center
Of your existence.

I didn’t know that
Until you were made to
Pass by without a glance
That you ached to
Throw my way…

Little beads of moments,
Little pearls of tears,
Little dews of sweat
And tiny specks of fears,
Donned with uncertainty –
All have frozen to form
The petals that remain
Of the drowning rose.

Swirls of smoky fog
Veil those eyes that once
Failed to look away from you ~
Not because they can’t
Condense and liquify the pains,
But because they refuse to,
Just so the malignantly comfortable
Silence continues…

~November 27th, 2012
~ sana rose~

Stilled ~

Stilled beyond existence

The sky
lets the clouds
pass by…

The clouds
glide like
milling crowds…

I try to blend in
but I’m kicked out-
and I give in…

Passion is a star
that glints at me
From spaces afar…

I no more
feel its heat
or its core…

Lights dim
outside my heart
like my whim…

I bite my lip,
find the last
warm bit’s tip…

Right there
I stop moving
like I care…

But bits of truth
that pain shows
rarely soothe…

I slowly return
to the sky that
starts to burn…

There, maybe
I’ll find you glowing
beyond me…

And… I will be
Stilled beyond existence

One last time…

~ sana rose ~
November 25th, 2012