Searching for a memory
hoping to give life to it
a time of fulfilled longing…
a cherished and happy time
A longing for someone from a long time ago, it seems like ages now
Someone I used to know so well
I gave myself to
Someone I shared a memory and a time with
Someone always in my thoughts…
but all gone with time
even as with time it came.
At first, the one is no more
and then the other knows not
It seems like a mystery to all
and what can be done is known to none
But I watch and wait for a time from long ago
a memory from a world lost
to rekindle, to come to life, to be born again…
for with its loss, a lust died within me
and now a lust it seems can save me.
But saving is beyond me
for love lost is not what taunts my night vision
if it were that, I could love again…
but a lost lust taunts my waking thoughts.
I plead for a release like from a blood covenant.
It’s a longing that cannot be quenched
for it is a longing for lust
From that I seek freedom
but none seems to know a way out
and alone I bear the flame of its wants.