I so often lie to myself,
I dream of you every waking moment and I talk to you.
Sometimes I realize that it is just an apparition and you are not there with me.
But my heart holds my senses back and convinces me,that you are indeed with me there.
With countless nights and days away from you ,to hold back my sanity.
I imagine you all around ,
Gazing at me caressing me with your eyes.
You don’t touch me but I can feel
I can feel that shivering sensation of being looked at with admiration.
I feel rejuvenated
And so on it goes…
And so often I just lie to myself.