SOMETHING LOOK AT-96
BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY
I AM A WIDOW
Do i need to be told
what to do, what not to,
how should I look,
what to wear, what to eat,
how to interact and conduct
in this heartless world of yours?
he was just another man,
a friend in the fair weather.
You have lost just a friend.
Do you know what have I lost?
I have lost my whole world.
With him gone my wishes,
my passions to live a life.
But I am breathing,
breathing for the sake of his love
to keep him alive
Have you ever fathomed
a woman’s love for her husband.
No man has ever been able to do so
and you are just another of the same species.
You can never understand
what he meant to me.
I don’t even expect you to understand.
Lett me live with my tears.
They are exclusively mine.
Let them drench me with all his colours.
Even at the cost of the world, its wealth and splendour I can hardly part with it, part with my emotions, my feelings,
half of my heart and soul.
Do you doubt my integrity?
If at this age if you need a woman,
what is the wrong if i go for another man.
If a man can marry after the death of his wife,
why can’t a woman.
Is this world only for men,
their whims and caprices?
I will be a prey to someone’s passion.
There is none in this world
who stands equal to my man,
at least for me
he is head and shoulder above others.
Men should understand
Women better read them, their body language and unusual showers of love.
Change the way you think,
or else you will only burn yourself
being a woman,
I expected you to stand by,
but you only added to my misery,
made my wounds fresh and bleed more.
Do you know what is in store for you in future?
If you are not with me,
never come to my life, add to my sorrow,
make my bleeding heart bleed more.
I call my own,
from you, my expectations were too high.
You never came forward
when i needed you the most.
You never solved my problems,
you can only end up adding a few more.
Can you refrain from giving me advice
and let me live on my own?
Leave me alone
I know how to stand on my legs and withstand life, its ebb and flow tide.
Neither I need your sympathy, compassion nor I have an ear to what you say.
I know my rights and.
understand my obligations.
To do justice to my role as a mother
I will never be in black and white,
reincarnate with all my colours
and will never allow my kids to suffer.
If at all Iam to make a compromise between love and life,
I will choose the latter
with my heart always beating for my love.