Double Act

My split personality

Bright and shiny upfront

Infectively happy and cheerful

My other half, veiled façade

A nether world obscured

From real time

Darkest secrets, anecdotes of

Lust, deceit, lies.

 

Years passed by

Jugglery between black and white

Like asymmetrical oscillations of a pendulum

Trials in life, oriented towards

Scheming the lateral swing

In the direction of dark and bright

The virtual dark, my problem,

My real life

 

A silent prayer, Oh Almighty

Preserve the veil strong

As I grow timeworn and weak

Let the world comprehend only the part

That I allowed them to see

Even if you take me to hell for the part they didn’t!

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  1. tapeshwar

    Mano Buddhi Ahankara Chitta Ninaham
    Nacha Shrotra Jihve Na Cha Ghrana Netre
    Nacha Vyoma Bhoomir Na Tejo Na Vayu
    Chidananda Rupa Shivoham Shivoham
    I am not mind, nor intellect, nor ego,
    nor the reflections of inner self (chitta).
    I am not the five senses.
    I am beyond that.
    I am not the ether, nor the earth,
    nor the fire, nor the wind .
    I am indeed,
    That eternal knowing and bliss, Shiva,
    love and pure consciousness.
    Na Cha Prana Samjno Na Vai Pancha Vayu
    Na Va Saptadhatur Na Va Pancha Koshah
    Na Vak Pani Padau Na Chopastha Payu
    Chidananda Rupa Shivoham Shivoham
    Neither can I be termed as energy (Prana),
    nor five types of breath (vayus),
    nor the seven material essences,
    nor the five coverings (pancha-kosha).
    Neither am I the five instruments of elimination,
    procreation, motion, grasping, or speaking.
    I am indeed,
    That eternal knowing and bliss, Shiva,
    love and pure consciousness.
    Na Me Dvesha Ragau Na Me Lobha Mohau
    Mado Naiva Me Naiva Matsarya Bhavah
    Na Dharmo Na Chartho Na Kamo Na Mokshah
    Chidananda Rupa Shivoham Shivoham
    I have no hatred or dislike,
    nor affiliation or liking,
    nor greed,
    nor delusion,
    nor pride or haughtiness,
    nor feelings of envy or jealousy.
    I have no duty (dharma),
    nor any money,
    nor any desire (kama),
    nor even liberation (moksha).
    I am indeed,
    That eternal knowing and bliss, Shiva,
    love and pure consciousness.
    Na Punyam Na Papam Na Saukhyam Na Dukham
    Na Mantro Na Teertham Na Vedo Na Yajnaha
    Aham Bhojanam Naiva Bhojyam Na Bhokta
    Chidananda Rupa Shivoham Shivoham
    I have neither virtue (Punyam),
    nor vice (Papam).
    I do not commit sins or good deeds,
    nor have happiness or sorrow,
    pain or pleasure.
    I do not need mantras, holy places,
    scriptures (Vedas), rituals or sacrifices (yagnas).
    I am none of the triad of
    the observer or one who experiences,
    the process of observing or experiencing,
    or any object being observed or experienced.
    I am indeed,
    That eternal knowing and bliss, Shiva,
    love and pure consciousness.
    Na Me Mrityu Shanka Na Me Jati Bhedah
    Pita Naiva Me Naiva Mata Na Janma
    Na Bandhur Na Mitram Gurur Naiva Shishyah
    Chidananda Rupa Shivoham Shivoham
    I do not have fear of death,
    as I do not have death.
    I have no separation from my true self,
    no doubt about my existence,
    nor have I discrimination on the basis of birth.
    I have no father or mother,
    nor did I have a birth.
    I am not the relative,
    nor the friend,
    nor the guru,
    nor the disciple.
    I am indeed,
    That eternal knowing and bliss, Shiva,
    love and pure consciousness.
    Aham Nirvikalpo Nirakara Roopaha
    Vibhur Vyapya Sarvatra Sarvendriyanam
    Sada Me Samatvam Na Muktir Na Bandhah
    Chidananda Rupa Shivoham Shivoham
    I am all pervasive.
    I am without any attributes,
    and without any form.
    I have neither attachment to the world,
    nor to liberation (mukti).
    I have no wishes for anything
    because I am everything,
    everywhere,
    every time,
    always in equilibrium.
    I am indeed,
    That eternal knowing and bliss, Shiva,
    love and pure consciousness.

    Shivoham, Shivoham….!

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