Don’t let it show…

You look at me through small cracks, with a respectful contempt or just an anxiety …
Your painted cheeks and colored eyes staring empty, traces of tears and a nose running …
If it one day becomes hard for you to look into my eyes, do not show anyone …
Yes, even if it becomes harder to explain them what they are asking you now …
so do not show it, just let it go away, do not show them who we are …
If it should hurt you when they mention my name …
so just say you do not know me so well, do not tell them anything …
When they ask you why you go dressed so covered or never goes out ..?
then tell them nothing, no, do not show them nothing …
If it helps you a little to say that I am the one you can blame …
just tell them you do not own me, no don’t let them know…
Although this seems to be the easy way out of it all …
then keep it in your mind, show them nothing, no don’t show it…
Although I know it’s the wrong thing to say, the wrong thing to do …
say you don’t care, just tell them nothing …

Even though you may think it’s a way out …
don’t you know then? That I’m not here anymore, no, I’m gone …
If you should smile then, yes even when they mention my name …
yes, then they do not know you, you have nothing you can show …
And if you should smile when they tell you that it’s all my fault …
then they do not recognize you, no they don’t know you at all …
Even if you feel you do not have more you can hide …
yes, think that if they see your true face and got to know your feelings …
keep it all within yourself, do not show them anything
Can’t you stay here no more, I ask you, just be mine like hitherto …
even the wetest tears dry on your cheeks, do not let me get stubbern with you …
It will be so hard without me to be the one for you …
tell them that they can not understand anything at all, yes, show them absolutely nothing …
Even though I feel that anger is shining on my cheek …
never open up for them, just ask them to disappear …
no do not show, just tell them nothing, don’t let it show …

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About jachso

Hey Destiny Poets. I live in Denmark about 90 km from Copenhagen and works in Roskilde as a teacher and mentor. I'm probably not like most men of my age and yes I am aged 50 years old. I've tried a lot of jobs without finding what I'm passionate about. Writing, I have always loved and I was probably just 14 years old when I produced my first poem. I have not yet been released some of my poems, but I hope it happens one day. I just finished a novel which I would like to have published, now the time and talent show whether I have the ability to write. Poetry has a special meaning for me and this is where I really feel at home. My life has sometimes been marked by many losses. In the mid eighties, I lost my fiance at the time when the accident happened was pregnant. She lost control of the car and drove herself and her child, who was on his way thereby, to death. It has really made its mark on my life and way of thinking. In the late nineties, I had problems with my back and had to seek other avenues to support myself. I finally decided to enroll at university and was admitted to the humanist line. I read philosophy, science, psychology, journalism and history, but philosophy and psychology is my major interest. I thrive today in the RUC aka Roskilde University just 25 km from Copenhagen. My job is to guide and teach, and it is a job with speed and that gives me a lot again. I have two collections of poems ready to be released, if I can find a publisher who will publish them. I have no children, it would obviously be my lot in life although I have tried, but luck never smiled at me that way. If you have any questions for me so I hope you just ask away all you want, I'll respond as soon as I have read the questions. With kindest regards from Jan Sorensen

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