Confession of a Monk

A monk is lying on his death bed.

His transient moments filled with a last wish.

Before life bid adieu he wished to have a confession.

A confession of being a monk!

 

You called me – ‘a monk, a sage, a saint’.

But I have hiccup an utter guilt

An abhorrence of these nouns as taunt

With chocking breaths impatiently I am waiting for my last.

 

A sudden ignition of erudite vision broke the fortress

Erasing all notions between a monk and a human being

On nomadic trajectory wore and worn out attire

Peeling illusions one by one from wrinkled skin.

 

New found wisdom defines human being

Glorifying Free-Will in a nut shell

 

Even the Almighty never put any hamstring

to thy swirl of myriad temptations.

Lustrous human desires never spared

for the monk in me often consumed

the so called sins shielding as excuses.

 

Deep down in burdened silence going on

arguments and counter arguments

resulting in paralysis of analysis.

I fled and shun the ironical echoes.

 

Mask of saint plunged

When all preaching failed

The lie I was living buried alive.

From the grave it mocked back like a ghost.

For I am back to square one with the stark truth..

 

Today I am laughing and telling the story as a layman

Whilst discarding all bifurcation of zenith and nadir.

The realisation liberated me with an ultimate truth

And I remain on my death bed with shallow breathes.

 

As quanta parallels the dualism

Oh desires! To live, have the doping of foul play!

 

“Let me die as human being and not a monk” !

 

The candid confession of a dying monk

escaped the cage of mortality

when he breathed his last..

 

© Maaya Dev

 

 

 

 

 

 

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About Maaya Dev

Maaya Dev is an Indian based poetess and an economics graduate. Her poems have found place in several national and international anthologies and journals like Episteme, Criterion, Langlit, Anthesis, Eternal, Wings, Forever, Change, The Significant Anthology, Aquillerelle Wall of Poetry Book 5, Umbilical Cords, Kaafiana. She is a winner of Delhi Poetry Challenge – Kaafiya Contest 2015 and a short story winner Seasosn 1 at StoryMirror. She is a contributor at many reputed poetry sites and won few poetry contests. She is also conferred with the title of ICOP Critic of the year 2015 at Destiny Poets UK( An International Community of Poets). Her debut anthology ‘SHIMMERING CHIMES’ got published by AUTHORSPRESS Delhi, in Sept 2015.She blogs at maayas-musing.blogspot.in.

7 thoughts on “Confession of a Monk

  1. VijayNair

    A dramatic,emotion-charged rendition of a moment of anagnorisis in the ”candid confession’ of a dying monk,reminding us,albeit obliquely, of Browning’s” Fra Lippo Lippi’ in which a priest defends his unorthodox lifestyle and zest for life. Lovely !

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  2. Sarala Ramkamal

    Exactly Vijay Sir, it reminded me Fra Lippo Lippi of Browning’s … at the end it is human who we were and wants to die as … very well said !

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