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About suzette portes san jose

Suzette Portes SanJosee is a Filipina, 62 yrs old, a widow and a mother of 5 daughters and a son. She is Bachelor of Science in Commerce from the University of San Carlos. She has been through her studies from being a University Scholar. She is not a literary achiever like other poets but born with her passion for writing and living in her arts. She started to write online, the year 2013. Her poetry brings about her life's journey in her pains, frustrations, betrayals and somehow a joy that found its way to her existence. An international contributor of poetry and arts... have contributed to 10 books since 2015 and 2017... and a book cover artist of 2 books for a moment. Done every poem with a painting for visuals. Doing her painting on canvas with acrylic and oil paint. also using acid-free paper for watercolor and poster paints. She also an admin to poetry groups on FB... Heart and Soul poetry USA, The Challenge USA, Feelings International Artist USA, Mohinderdeep Grewal Poetry corner Canada, Hiraya International Philippines. At her age, she had found the fulfillment of her dreams and passion and would rather choose to venture for more success in arts and literary works. She wants to convey these words, " INSPIRE BEFORE YOU EXPIRE"

Between Smiles and Tears

in the misty shadow of the ghastly curtain 
that constantly falls in the splendor of the day
smiling lips in a silly grin may bless the way
though wet and the drenching from the rain

a look on oneself so far from your sights
from dusk till dawn not seeing the lights
hurdled by darkness i hold back my tears
only the thoughts of you comforted my fears

like a rose velvety petals with dew drops kiss
in wonders of color, you were there in a bliss
greeting the sun, a bow by those fluttering wings
just to tell time to start only from its beginnings

from each day shall the cold breeze touch the air 
with a warm embrace to have and to share
between smiles and tears, i found you so near
yet like a cloud of smoke, i couldn’t touch you dear


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Truth, a mysterious reality

amidst the vision of thoughts conceived and concealed
skipping away the time of paranoia bewildered
merging reality from illusion and delusion
converging slopes of imagination infusion

……should the sun sets to rise again
……….save this heart to feel the pain
…………..reveal no words for a sad refrain
……………….holding only for souls enchain

from darkened moon a shadow cast, only darkness to last
where even the fiery skies feared tale of lies
in distance site sights of emptiness and loneliness
unleashed the unearthed to unveil only for the truth to prevail

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Love Me Not

Love me not for what i have…i have nothing
have lost even the sole treasure i hold in my heart

Love me…for the possession of my soul’s suffering
Not…the whirling world of my beginnings to start

Love me not for what i am…i am no one
the pride i bestowed can’t stand to be my pedestal

Love me…though forsaken as life will soon be gone
Not…the perfection condemning good as my equal

Love me not or love me true … i have only you
as i keep the vow of promises to have and to hold

Love me… with the wholeness of my uncanny hue
Not… myself and my being, destined that i behold

Love me not and let me live or shall let me die
but never deprive my immortality of heavens high.

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The Sound of Silence

from the deafening echoes shattered 
now the sound of silence be heard
’twas all of nothingness and emptiness
only the hues of darkened brightness

groped through the way with eyes opened
holding only to hope with a heart to mend
with dreams of a joyous day along the way
whispering hearts that tell tales and stay

within the sound of silence the best melody
humming the tune of the heart in serenity
in silence felt the home to dwell in its depth
where spirit dared to meddle without death

in the darkness that is hovering all around
only the stars glittering far beyond is found
on this night we shared, never an empty sky
our souls’ silent calling of home in heavens high

the chill from the freezing wind that keeps blowing
a million eyes of the watchful stars that are daunting
the whispers of the breeze seemed to be wailing
the only sound heard silently in the core of my being

in water color painting by suzette portes san jose

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Here, Beyond

here i am, among the perfection of wonders
the magical creation of nature that forever lingers
beauty was there laid to admire with adoring eyes
flowers bloom gracefully with fluttering butterflies

here i am, to breathe the refreshing air today
never knowing if tomorrow i could still stay
be a child… roam around, dance and play
enjoy the warm embrace of the sun all day

while the glittering horizon awaits far beyond
to set my footprints on its earthen sand
will there be another beauty that’s waiting for me?
all that is more than the wonders i now see

this must be a haven of time in endlessness
where everything stops only for a new beginning
a reality of perfection and imperfection in countlessness
beyond the yellow haze, the circle of life’s true meaning

(c) 3/29/2019


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All That Matters Most

through the years we have it all
even in times when we stumble and fall
we hold on so close to each other together
created a wonderland of dreams to linger
in each time all for the heart to ponder

we have gathered it all in the name of love
it is of a divine blessing showered from above
counted endlessly from time to time in eternity
the glory that adorns our heart in times infinity
the pureness of body and spirit in all sincerity

these are all that matters most to treasure
the unconditional love limitless without measure
only we can sing our song in rhymes forevermore
even a floating from the deepest into my shore
and to every footstep leading to your hearts’ door


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The Vow…A Promise

the virtue of heart. mind, body, and soul combined
holding on to forever leaving the pain of past behind
the joy of sharing the passion of life to live today
from within a promise that would never fade away

we took the chance in minutes and time together
contemplate the destiny that brings all the wonder
in every smile on the lips as the soul winks a second
felt the warmth of an embrace just holding your hand

all through the years a vow…a promise we will give
for the love to be there with us for as long as we live
with the heart to understand and always will forgive
whatever it may cost we will stand and shall never leave

let us hold the vow…a promise till our last breath
till time with us shall forever fail to lay on life finding death
as the earthen glory never exists in the world of immortality
but love can always be through space and times infinity

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Spring in Wings

with an open arm, like wings soaring upon the sky
clothed with warmth within from the shining sun
beneath the wings, winds among the flowers bloom
as clouds adored the beauty from heavens high
rendezvous remembered when spring is gone
spring in wings embracing the earthen bosom

let the moistened ground bring forth a new life
from the winter’s cold unfreezing tow away the grief
melting tears of snow flown into deep ripples rife
drowned, slipping through thoughts and sighs of disbelief
beholding on to sight the new horizon far beyond
destined journey among flowers and rainbows so grand

over the mountains on the ranges of flowery fields
hovering, wings swiftly cover the praiseworthy view
playfully gliding through the petals velvety dew 
the bounty of spring fragrance as gathered and yields
commune the glory of life in a joyous shower it brings
unto eternal creation in the certainty of spring in wings

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Incantation of the Heart

whispers from what heart holds within
shaken the soul, body cold quivering

catching breath as lips in a grin
let the shadows free and lingering

words shatter the soft blowing wind
splintered tears in bits of tinned

it pains, it bleeds to find its end
gasping and groping trying to mend

bewitching each moment spared
into your heart from eyes that stared

whisperings incessantly roaring
from the cold breeze as wind blowing

freezing the skin, stiffening each vein
the warmth of blood starting to drain

the body and spirit grow weary and faint
sought the strength within so quaint

deep enchantment where love be found
hunted from incantation, a heart is bound

Rainbows End


tears from heaven, in drizzles, were send
upon the clouds, among the rainbows end
floating soul-soaked, dripping, and wet
under the rain standing still with a mindset

to walk across the storm in gusty wind
in barefoot with all the bloody mud stained
in broken wings flew to where clouds may go
swiftly and all along… did blindly follow

drenching from the pouring rain that never stops
lost thyself and lost a heart, the weary body drops
a pleading heartbeat cried like a roaring thunder
visions and thoughts wander to seek and ponder

through bright lightning that strikes, a way was found
pavement where soul silently creep, without a sound
wished to find strength and the chance to stand tall
body weakened on buckled knees shall never fall

all through, upon the rainbow’s end, I sought
the pain of joy found on a pot of gold it brought
beholding the soul dripping, drenching, stern and still
on dark clouds of stormy rain, a heart learns to heal.

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